Dec 07 2004

Who cares?

Published by at 10:08 pm under Holiday Magic,Introspection,The Fam,The Man

I was going to link to the online album of wedding pictures that our photographer put online, but then I realized that those are not all pictures of just me and The Man, and some people might not want their mugs all over the internet, so I refrained.  If you were in the wedding party or at the wedding and you don’t mind having your mug on the internet, leave me a comment giving the OK and I will post more pictures.

I freaked out a bit yesterday because I had zero Christmas shopping done, and no idea what I was going to get for anyone.  Usually, with my family I can just wing it, but The Man’s family “doesn’t believe in lists”, and I don’t really know his sisters that well, so they end up getting the same thing – last year it was a faux suede and sheepskin throw, the year before Galileo thermometers.  Ditto with the brothers – usually sweatshirts.  This year I have no freaking idea.  I’m thinking I’m just going to go to Old Navy and get everyone a Performance Fleece or a scarf or something.  Don’t believe in lists, my eye.  Tell me what you want!

Anyway, yesterday I started to panic so I started shopping online.  I bought things for my sister, my dad, one sister-in-law (the only one with an Amazon wish list), Chris, Michael, and The Man.  That leaves me with 24 people who have nothing bought for them, and several people who need additional gifts purchased.  Every year I do this, and every year I tend to just finish my shopping in one mad dash, picking up the first thing I see that will sort of fit the bill and growling all the while.  I like to give presents, but only when I know something about the person I’m gifting, OR I HAVE A LIST.  The other problem is that The Man has way too many siblings, and those siblings have way too many children.  I have seven family members I need to buy gifts for.  He has twenty.  TWENTY.  I will probably go shopping tonight, and I will come home angry, red-faced, and with exactly one gift purchased.

It is raining today.  Raining and blowing.  Plus, it’s just on this side of freezing.  If it was any colder, the rain would be snow.  I would actually prefer snow.  I hate cold, driving rain.  I don’t like to walk outside and get drenched with cold rain, because then I’m cold for the rest of the day.  The weather is doing NOTHING for my mood, which is in the shitter anyway.

I don’t feel like writing much lately.  I don’t feel like I have a lot to say.  The fact that the wedding is over has left a big, gaping hole in my consciousness that I’m not sure how to fill.  I was focused on this event for so many months, and it was always in the back of my mind.  Now that I don’t have to worry about it anymore, I wonder what new thing will take its place?  So far, there is nothing, which is probably why I feel like I’m out of words.  Part of my mind is empty.

This may also have to do with the fact that it’s my least favorite time of year: the “get dark at 5 PM” time of year.  I’m sure this has something to do with not enough sunlight (winter in Michigan is about two things: overcast sky and snow), but I feel groggy and lethargic.  My internal clock is askew.  I think it’s 9 PM when really it’s only 5:30.  I’m tired most of the time.  I feel listless.  I have problems caring about things like work, dirty laundry, or personal hygiene.  I still do/take care of all of these things, but the whole time I’m thinking “Bah.  What’s the point?”

So, all that being said, you might not hear from me as regularly for awhile.  I will write when I think of something to write about, or have something to share that I think is funny.  Updates will most likely be sporadic, but e-mail is always on if you have something you need to say to me.

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